WTH Am I Doing Up This Late?
Listening to Pandora.
Listening to the diapers in the washer and drier.
Listening to my thoughts.
Listening to the nothing-ness quiet.
I really struggle with bed time. I hate to go, but I hate to get up in the morning. I *love* to sleep, but the actual physical act of getting in bed part has always been such a struggle for me. I wonder why that is...
So, instead I sit at the kitchen table reading about coefficient aphas for subgroups of a language assessment, checking my fb and email, dreading the alarm in the morning.
I have a million different posts in my mind that I need to get out, but first and foremost is going to be one called "The What-If's of Motherhood" for my girl D. Another one is going to be about the exploration of the subconcious and why we/I believe what we/I do. And yet another one is going to be my birth story of Monkey #2....a whole year later. I'm thinking about doing it in pictures because they will likely convey the mood and overall feeling of her labor and birth so much better than my year-later, milk-drenched, school-occupied brain will be able to.
(By the way, has it been an entire year ALREADY?? Wow....I think my doula and midwife might still be recovering from us!)
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I Am the same way, hubby is even worse. I don't want to go to bed at night because I want that quiet time! And yet, when the kids get up in the morning I really regret it. Some of the best days I have had have been when I go to bed really early - like 9:30- and then get up at like 5:00 and have time to myself before everyone is up. You have to be a lot quieter though, because they are likely to wake up whereas at night they are tired enough to sleep through some noise. But still, its really nice.
That's what I'm doing right now- avoiding bed even though I'm tired. So much yet to do... Ahh- diapers- thanks for reminding me. Otherwise we would be doing some EC-ing until they got clean tomorrow! =)
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